For the first time in my life, anger has no effect. Anger is my automatic defense reaction for getting hurt. When I'm angry, I would curse, break things (eg: furniture, glasses, people), drive really fast and maybe crash the car a. against a wall b. against another car c. run over a person, have angry sadistic sex, listen to angry hiphop music, get drunk, smoke dope and do other similar things that angry people do when they are angry, and get over my hurt. It used to be really easy. Like you know, fuck you – you whore, I don't want you back etc.
The acid test for love is, whether you can really hate someone when the promises are broken and the dreams are shattered. As it turns out, I just feel regret and a general anesthetic numbness. I simply can't hate this person.
What this person did was cruel beyond words. The pictures, the words, the lies, the betrayal. Can't believe I was wrong too. I knew it was going to end some day, and I knew she was going to do it, hell I told her as much just a few hours earlier, but never ever could have imagined it to be the way it happened.
Anyway, it's time to get to work, because I've got things to do, and dreams to achieve, life stops for no one, and I don't stop for you.
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I went through some similar incidents…but not in the same scale.
reading your thoughts made me realize how pathetic v humans are. some ppl choose to be angry becuase they r hurt.what they don’t realize is,that its not a solution.