Intoxication has toxic in it

It’s funny how I never realised that.  Intoxication literally means introducing a toxic substance to your system. I hate drinking by the way. The smell and taste of alcohol sickens me. Smoking is much worse, and I particularly hate sharing a spliff because you have to smoke at someone else’s pace.
I hate what I do [...]

A whole new world

Dedicated to my shooting star…

Note
This song must not be taken as a reflection of my taste in music. I will hunt you down and cut you to pieces if you ever mention this song in my presence.

Angel dies – a star is born

 
I thought you were my star. My own. No one elses. But you are a star. A star that lights up the whole world. You don’t belong to me. You belong to everyone who needs you and wants to look up at you and dream about you. I have no right to keep a star [...]

The hour of sad choices – 2

I do miss you. It’d be a lie if I said I didn’t. Yesterday I had a weird dream where I was dressed for work, walking along the road in front of my old house and you were there with your mom and some guy. I walked past not looking at you. What does it [...]

My precious…

 
I was so wrong about Masha. I mean I was such an insecure, misunderstanding prick. She didn’t do anything except loving me unconditionally. I can’t imagine how she could be such an angel – so understanding, always forgiving, and having such a golden heart.
I came home yesterday night and guess what I found on the [...]

St Anger

For the first time in my life, anger has no effect. Anger is my automatic defense reaction for getting hurt. When I'm angry, I would curse, break things (eg: furniture, glasses, people), drive really fast and maybe crash the car a. against a wall b. against another car c. run over a person, have angry [...]